Wait maybe I'm sick Maybe there's a reason I feel like shit Ya there's something underneath my skin And I hate it Cause it's been There's something wrong with my head Cutting the heart out of everything Thought it was me But maybe it's happening to me How did it get so bad? It's taking everything I have To keep it together I never used to think like that Why can't I find my way back It's been so long I can't remember who I am It's like falling asleep I can't remember the moment it happened Now it feels like I can't leave The nightmare I keep having It's part of everything now I can't tell what's me I can't separate the dreamer from the dream How did it get so bad? It's taking everything I have To keep it together I never used to think like that Why can't I find my way back? I'll throw a match And watch it burn down Until I'm naked in the ashes I just don't know what will be left The start is always the hardest Feels like taking a leap Jumping into the darkness I just want to be free Jumping into the darkness I just want to be free Jumping into the darkness I just want to be free